Peace and Dignity

What have i left to give to this world
But my sadness, fear and insecurities?
And my fake smiles, and my fake laughs?
For i am not worth a second, nor a thought.

Do i not have the right to seek in death,
What life has so long denied of me?
Grant me this last selfish act,
And i will consume no more of this world.

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2015-08-26 1041H
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